The Magnificent Kiss

21 Dec

Last night, I visited the Senior Facility and fed Ernie at the normal dinner hour of 5 PM.  As it had been for many weeks, his eyes remained closed and he took in spoonful bites, slowly chewed, and sipped on his juice as I held it up to his lips. He remained in his own world.  I found myself getting used to this response or lack of response.  There was no conversation back when I talk with him but a good feeling that he was getting nourishment as he continued to take in his solids and fluids.  I had become family with the staff and other residents as we sat together in the dining room and I was thankful for this time with Ernie and my “other family.”  The mood was always upbeat — no matter what the circumstance.

As I fed Ernie, I recalled the many dinners we had together over the years of our marriage and the interesting conversations that took place between us.  I valued his views on the many topics we discussed.  He taught me so much and opened my eyes to many things.  I had a flashback of one of the last meals we had while he was home. He held my hand, apologized for his disease and told me that he would always love me — even when he was gone.  We both cried together and then kissed. That memory was still fresh in my mind and I shared it with Ernie while I scooped up his dinner and patiently put it to his mouth.  He then finished his meal and restlessly pulled back from the table.  Dinner time was over.

The staff and I walked Ernie over to the sofa where we got him comfortably settled.  Sitting with him, my arm around his shoulders, it was his habit to fall into a comfortable nap at which time I would quietly leave for home.  To my surprise, instead, Ernie opened his beautiful blue eyes and looked directly into my eyes.  I took this moment to connect and told Ernie how much I loved him.  With that, Ernie reached up, grabbed the back of my neck, and pulled me in for a truly passionate kiss!  Whew!  It was a good, romantic kiss — just as it used to be!  My heart was pumping, I smiled, he smiled… and then the moment passed.  Ernie closed his eyes and off to sleep he went.

Out of the blue, here was another one of those surprises — a precious connecting moment.   But this time, it came with a magnificent kiss that will remain etched in my mind forever.  Once again, I give thanks.

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3 Responses to “The Magnificent Kiss”

  1. Heather Schepman December 21, 2013 at 5:15 pm #

    Beautiful

  2. Michele Ryan Crofoot December 22, 2013 at 8:05 pm #

    Thank you for sharing the many intimate moments of your journey through Alzheimers. It helped me find my way many times. My Ernie is gone now but in my heart I still have the wonderful love and memories with which we were blessed.

    • mebwoodacre December 23, 2013 at 3:16 am #

      Michele, Thank you for your nice response. I, too, will carry many loving and happy memories of my Ernie. I am sending you good thoughts going forward.

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